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Graham MacIndoe has a routine. Air Max 97 Mujer Rebajas . Every day before work, he runs six miles. He doesnt listen to music because it distracts him from his thoughts.?Its a spiritual thing for me, MacIndoe said. I get in a zone and reflect on my life -- where Ive been, what Ive done and whats important.The 53-year-old is reminded of where hes been and what hes done whenever he glances at his left forearm, which is peppered with tattoos. The words mum and dad are inked above his wrist, just below a 7-inch protruding track mark on his inner forearm. The faded purple mark is the byproduct of a vein darkening from scarring. Its associated with long-term heroin use.Im never allowed to forget, said MacIndoe, who struggled with addiction for a decade. Sometimes its startling, but [the mark] grounds me and reminds me of somewhere I dont want to return to.In 2000, MacIndoe entered a black hole of addiction and lost nearly everything. He pushed away his family and his friends. Time spent in prison was the wake-up call he needed. Its what helped free him from his addiction. And when he emerged from it all, he rediscovered his passion for running.MacIndoe started running at age 18 in his hometown of Broxburn, Scotland, located on the outskirts of Edinburgh. Mostly it was social -- he often ran with friends in baggy soccer shorts and cheap sneakers in rural fields, until he decided to get more serious and joined a local running club. He and his younger brother Fraser trained and raced together.He was absolutely committed to running, Fraser said. His life was totally clean. He was pretty much a vegetarian and never really drank. It seemed like he was addicted to running.MacIndoe sometimes trained twice a day alongside local elite Scottish runners. When he wasnt engaged in interval sessions on a grass track, he joined the group for long runs of up to 16 miles around the countryside on weekends.Running was my first love. It was something I was at one with, said MacIndoe, who chronicles his experiences in his first book, Chancers: Addiction, Prison, Recovery, Love: One Couples Memoir, co-authored by his partner, Susan Stellin.But he pushed the sport away after he graduated from college and moved to New York City -- a place he had always wanted to live -- in 1992. At the time, he worked at a photography gallery to support his then-wife and his son, who was less than 2 years old. They divorced, then he remarried. But the deeper he got into his career, which transitioned to commercial photography, the more he started to drink and fall into a certain lifestyle.His second wife left a couple of years later. He replaced alcohol with drugs. Cocaine at first, then crack and eventually heroin, a habit that was easier to hide while he was going through another divorce and attempting to climb out of depression. ?As addicts, were selfish, MacIndoe said. The damage to other people in your life is phenomenal. When you start to realize that, thats when you realize your recovery is not just about you.MacIndoe and Stellins relationship developed during the height of his addiction in 2006. He would hide a syringe in his eyeglass case, but his desire to use trumped any efforts to shield his habit. Stellin, who had never had a drug problem, once found MacIndoe passed out on his couch with a crack pipe in his fist.When Fraser would visit New York, he said he would encourage his brother to get back into running so it could be a positive focus in his life again, something to look forward to every day. But, he said: The drugs had such a hold on him. It was a downward spiral for many years.MacIndoe was arrested for heroin possession in 2010 after he was caught by an undercover cop at a coffee shop in Brooklyn. He had hidden a crack pipe in his sock. MacIndoe was locked away at Rikers Island, where he spent the first few days of his four-month stay dope sick.Theres nothing I can do to avoid what I know is coming, he writes in the book. When people ask what its like to go through heroin withdrawal, I tell them to imagine the worst flu theyve ever had, add a bad case of food poisoning, mix in a deep depression, and top it off with a good kicking. Now multiply everything by ten.MacIndoe has been clean since he was sent to Rikers Island six years ago. After Rikers he was moved to York County Prison in Pennsylvania, where he was held in immigration detention. He took part in the Freedom Program, intense rehab that included cognitive behavioral therapy, along with other individual and group counseling throughout the day, every day. This, he says, is what really helped him kick his addiction.It took me a long time to understand that addiction is a really complex problem that theres no one size fits all solution to, Stellin said.MacIndoe was close to being deported, but a judge ultimately ruled to let him stay in the U.S. because he participated in a rehab program, remained clean and stayed out of trouble. He was released from immigration detention in 2011 and moved back to Brooklyn.When I was in my addiction, I made a lot of promises that I never followed through with, he said.Those promises included telling people he was trying to quit, that it was his last time using, that he wasnt going to hang around the wrong influences. One also included getting back into running. He wasnt physically capable during what he describes as the most debilitating period of his life.After prison, running became a more important part of my recovery, he writes in the book. It was a way for me to put what I learned in the Freedom Program into practice: stepping back, thinking more rationally, not overreacting. Its hard to explain, but running gave me that release.At first, 400 yards felt painful. His heart would beat uncomfortably fast, though he was far from a 5:30-minute mile pace that he used to maintain with ease as a young adult.It was a real eye-opener, MacIndoe says. I was blown away that I couldnt really run. It was like an out-of-body experience, both discouraging and motivating. But as painful as it was, it brought back memories of when I was a teenager and gave me a feeling of that thing I loved.The transition back into running took several months before he started to feel comfortable. Twice weekly runs of two miles increased to three days, four miles. He eventually worked his way to running about six days a week for six miles at a time, and usually more on weekends.He didnt just want to run though. MacIndoe says it was a need. He used running as a way to purge doubt and cultivate confidence, which he credits for helping get his career back on track. As an adjunct photography professor at Parsons School of Design, MacIndoe is also a freelance commercial photographer.Hes the best version of himself now, Fraser said. He realizes how bad of a place he was in and is grateful that hes been given a second chance to live his life again, which for many years he thought hed never get. Hes making the most of it. Air Max 270 Light Bone Hot Punch . Pirlo limped out of Sundays 1-0 win over Udinese after just 13 minutes. Juventus says Pirlo underwent tests on Monday which revealed he has "a second-degree lesion to the collateral medial ligament in his right knee. Air Max 97 Italy Flag . General manager Jarmo Kekalainen told Aaron Portzline of The Columbus Dispatch on Friday that he wants to see Gaboriks contributions go beyond the scoresheet before considering a long-term deal for the soon-to-be unrestricted free agent. . Defencemen Drew Doughty, Shea Weber and forward Ryan Getzlaf also scored for the Canadians, who started their gold-medal defence 2-0. Goalie Roberto Luongo, getting the call in place of Game 1 starter Carey Price, was solid when needed in making 23 saves for the shutout. ARLINGTON, Va. -- When Matt Niskanen contemplated skipping a trip to the gym over the summer, he remembered what happened in May.As the offseason went on, Niskanen thought less and less about the Washington Capitals loss to the eventual Stanley Cup champion Pittsburgh Penguins. Instead, he let the memory of the second-round playoff exit fuel him from time to time.That hurt, it lingers, and I think you can use that as motivation, Niskanen said. That kind of stuff creeps into your mind and it pushes you.Now several months removed from another painful playoff loss, the Capitals came to training camp ready to harness whatever energy they could from that while also preparing to move past it and focus on another run at the Cup this season. Almost the entire roster is back from the Presidents Trophy-winning team that ran roughshod over the NHL during the regular season, and with Alex Ovechkin, Nicklas Backstrom and goaltender Braden Holtby in their primes, there isnt time to waste on reflection and hindsight.You need to see where things went awry and try to rectify it, said veteran winger Justin Williams, one of several players with one year left on his contract. We set a standard with having successful teams, a team every year fans can look at and say, `You know, we legitimately have a chance to win it again. As players we embrace that and we respect it and we know that these opportunities that we have in front of us arent forever.Along with Williams, winger T.J. Oshie and defenseman Karl Alzner could be unrestricted free agents July 1. Restricted free agent center Evgeny Kuznetsov will get a big raise on a new deal, and Washingtons salary cap picture will get more difficult as the years go on.Ovechkin also just turned 31, and while he led the league in goal-scoring last season, theres no certainty as to how long his Hall of Fame-caliber production will keep up. After winning the division by 16 points and losing in the second round -- again -- general manager Brian MacLellan doesnt think theres a bigger burden on winning this year with so many unknowns on the horizonn. Air Max 270 Blancas Negras. I think theres pressure every year, MacLellan said. Last year we were a contender, theres pressure. Same pressure this year. We have a goal of winning a championship. We know were close and we need to pursue it and well do everything we can to get there.Alzner was just starting to get over the early exit when pictures of the Penguins celebrating with the Cup filled up his social media feeds. The ironman whose groin injury forced him out of the deciding Game 6 and led to sports hernia surgery scoffed at the notion that Pittsburgh winning makes the loss easier to take.Its worse, in my opinion, because then you really think, `OK if I could have got past that team then the Cup was ours, said Alzner, whos still working his way back to 100 percent. I think that all of us in the room thought that we were going to win that last year.Being great in the regular season and losing in the first or second round has become the Capitals reputation over the past decade. The 2015-16 team was perhaps the best on paper, which made the late stumble into summer that much more confounding.As more top players continue to trickle back into town after playing in the World Cup of Hockey, associate coach Todd Reirden expects the staff to impart lessons about last season on the full group. Early in camp, the mood is light with players eager to make a fresh start and learn from losing to the Penguins.Asked what the Capitals can do to improve, Williams deadpanned: We can finish the season with a win. Thats it.Thats a challenge that cant be accomplished until the spring. Players, coaches and fans may want to fast-forward until then, but Washington has to again get there first.Youve got to be patient, center Jay Beagle said. The game has to develop. Weve got new guys, so we want to go into this year making sure were playing our best going into the end of the year and in the playoffs.---Follow Stephen Whyno on Twitter at . 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